What next

Life should never be hard on any of us, but what if you have no choice ?🤷🏾‍♂️

Of late, I’ve been waking up late (close to 1100 or 1200 hrs🙈) in my small cozy bed 🛏️, even had moments where I wish not to just get up😴😴, and when I had to, well guess what? I’ve also had some revision📚 apparently for my ‘now’ online💻 classes📝 which not only I, but also my coursemates still find a little difficult to adjust to (of course we must, we have no option).

I get to wake up to some pleasant  breakfast🥪🍉☕😋 (just bragging😁), Sit down to check for any updates from my chatrooms and stare in the blur👀 for a moment wondering… When will this end?🤷🏾‍♂️ Read a novel📖, play a video game🎮, sit outside in the evenings, watch the sunset over our neighbors’ rooftops, watch🔭 the moon🌘 come out looking so crescent and cute, accompanied with lovely stars💫. Oh, not to forget, I’ve been doing movies🎬 aswell, lots of them to be sure and I think I could run one more month to exhaust all of them🙈🤭

This… this has been my awkward routine🤦🏾‍♂️, for the past couple of weeks and yet to some of you it’s probably and definitely been longer☹️. Waking up knowing that today for some reason, is going to be just like yesterday… boring😒, and asking yourself when this will all end as you doze off quite often. And of course, keeping indoors. In a snapshot📷, all this looks like some weird movie🧟 where we’ve been made characters🙍🏾‍♂️ without knowing, can you imagine!🙆🏾‍♂️

But not a day🌅 has gone by when I’ve not had those silent moments🙎🏾‍♂️, moments in which I’ve missed my friends🤼‍♂️, my crazy days🎭 the funny hustles🚵🏾‍♂️, the night hangouts…🍻🥂 I’m missing my ordinary life💯 things I’m used to, and I guess we all are, something has been taken away from us right now. But then, as my eyes glow and fill up with trinklets of tears about these days, in these silent moments, my mind is also left to wonder🦋 off to the things that mattered, yet I seemed not to care about, things which defined me.

To myself I’ve told my self this is my chance to look back into my goal planner📅 ( which most of us have I believe), where do I see myself after this…🤷🏾‍♂️ what am I getting from it… After this moment, what matters most in my life, who and what comes first ? Am I placing myself first before anything else ? True everyone matters, but when was the last time🕠 I ever had for myself other than today like this ?

At exactly 0416hrs E.A.T, when I’ve not yet had an ounce of sleep the entire day (just being a little dramatic 🤭), and I don’t know wether what I’m Writing makes any sense, wether you are able to get the gist of it all… But at least have this in your mind, when was the last time you had time for yourself ? When was the last time all you thought about was just you? When was the last time you negated all the noise, and kept akimbo just to take in the stillness of everything , to hear the sound of the wind, to listen to a beautiful breeze play a sound of music, when was the last time you thought about organizing your affairs, your objectives and your goals ? I’m not your

It may sound weird per say, but after all this crisis, what’s your next move👣, what next in your life…?

A beautiful world

A beautiful world it was, a beautiful world it is, a beautiful world it can still be.
Mama, why are we are dying young and slowly inspite of our vibrant energy ? The world we knew, isn’t what it is anymore! It’s unfaded beauty,  what did we make of it? Back in the days we joyed and prejudiced ourselves in humanity, but where is all that pride now ?

Currently we are envisaged in fear, panic and terror… We are overshadowed in “a man eat man” world. Long and gone are the days we joined and united hands to stand together, perhaps this is that time! Gone are the days we’d sit together on one round table and enjoy a nice made meal together, we now prefer eating behind well tucked in curtains.

The rich are thriving on the poor, the stronger are enslaving the weak, honesty has become an object of weakness, and transparency is a sign of backwardness. This is how far we’ve gone. Scavenging upon another like ruthless animals. Giving a hand with a calculated move. We don’t help without expectations.

We seem to forget that all this we fight for, we leave behind. We forget the journey laid before us. May be this just our nature, being Self centered… Or may be this is the time… Perhaps now is the time to act, to stand as one. Now is the time for self reflection on where we are now, and where we want to be. Now is the time for human solidarity, brotherhood and firmness. It’s here that we look upon our errors and realize how quick we are susceptible to attacks if we aren’t one. It’s upon this moment we look back at our mistakes and rectify them. Now is when we stop pointing fingers to one another.

At this point, this precise moment, when we realize we’ve lost lots of friends, time, moments. We’ve lost part of ourselves, most of what makes us. We’ve been broken as a race. The worst in us has been brought out in the light.

Well, good news, this doesn’t have to be the end. There is always hope. We can live a better life, we can retrace our footsteps, we can be whole again. Everything can still be beautiful as it was. Birds can fly and we hear them whirling. The sky can still look much more prettier. Everyday, you may rise up with a great purpose.  We deserve another chance.

A quick one for you, what next after this ?

A new dawn

Billz' words of thought

They say every sunrise is unique💖
But there is more beauty in it’s gloam✨💫
Perhaps coz how you start your day,
isn’t what matters🙅
or that the morning aurora may be deceitful…✌️
But at least you are you are certain
when it crepuscles,☄️☄️
Not that you had a great day👺
Or expecting to have one💔
but for the twilight🌬️…
it hides your fears🙈 and tears😢
and dawns🌨️🌧️ on you
new hope for a new morrow🌻🌹

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Fine wine 🍷

The only moment I lived was when I loved… The perfect memories I ever hold are those with them that mattered.

For each day that past by, I longed for them

Them that curved me into a perfect lady…Refined and redefined me like fine wine.

They became mine even when there was no time.

They were that beautiful tingling sound of music ringing in my ears

ringing like a sound of birds whistling when I woke up,
With Soft, soft, soft deep breaths and a calm heart beat.

It was them… Always has been, that made me realize my  dreams come true.

Saw the bold woman in me, the Angel in me…

A reason to smile…

Billz' words of thought

Well, I want to believe that I’m not that reason ( how I pray I am) and I don’t want u to see it in me,
may be you’ve lost hope in yourself, feel like you’ve let your guard down…yourself down.
But, do you know how much hopes I have in you,
how much belief I have in you,
do you know how much courage u inspired in not I alone, but to every soul you touched ?

You’ve done a pretty good job in making us smile,
giving us a reason to smile, and you said we were it.
I may have no idea as to why you want to give up on you,
but I choose to believe that you are worth billion reasons to be happy, to emit love…

You are worth a reason to smile.

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The endless questions…

When your world falls apart, what’s your best move ?
When all evil is lurking your way, which seems a better way ?
How best do you hide your tears from them that care about you ? Why do you do it ? Why don’t you want them to know of your pain ?

Why is it that when all seems to be well, something else hits you hard ? Why is the world so against you ? Why are the forces of nature working to fail you ?
Why is it that you best moments are always short-lived ? Was happiness meant to be your thing ?
Is your life worth living ? Is it worth a shot ?

Why is it always you ? Is it just you, or everyone else has endless questions in life ?
When do you get to move on ? When do you take a step when all is holding you back ?

Will life ever be fair to you ? Will the strings of the guitar and the sound of music ever be beautiful to your ears ?
Will anyone ever give you attention ? Will they ever care like you do ?  Love you like you deserve ?  Cherish you like you do them ?

Does anyone even mind that you are there ? Why is it that there are many pretenders than realists ?
Is you life worth living ?

It’s not just you, we all have questions on our hearts… We all have these things that make us powerless, things that make us question why we are. We all have these same questions, phrased in different ways. Surprisingly most have the same answers, but how we approach them, is what makes a difference.

We all take the same high way in life, but how we reach our destinations, the means we use to get there are what make a difference. The endless questions we have in life, are perhaps what make us human… They are what breathes life into us. They might be our signs of weakness but they are also what keep us moving.

None of us has been  craved and curved into a perfect gentleman… But we’ve all been Rifened like fine wine, and not yet to whine. We have and still are passing through the furnace, but it doesn’t mean it won’t be over.

These questions… Are endless, life is endless, sometimes you become speechless and feel like you are worthless… But people care, people mind, and people love. People have been tested, tempted and still survive, they strive!

Your past might be blurry, scary and fluffy, but it can’t determine your future. No one’s fate is ever sealed untill they give up. Don’t give up yet on yourself, no has. Don’t work hard to be successful in failing yourself, you might never live to regret it, but others will. Don’t carry any burdens of guilt on you, don’t carry your cross alone. What makes us human, is knowing there is someone willing to go with us all the way, knowing there is someone we can share with.

What makes us human… Is being human, knowing that we make mistakes, get lost in life, loose track of what we are meant to be, question what we are meant to use of our lives. But amidst all these, we find love, joy, happiness, craziness… We find friends, make friends, and even when we are to be cut short, we live moments… moments which become memories, and memories which keep us living.

So Yes… Your life is worth living, it’s worth a shot !

Lone or alone …?

Sometimes it feels cool to be a human with no feelings,
Living a quiet lone life with no ringings,
one where you ignore those trying to reach out to you for you’ve been overstepped at.
Sometimes a quiet life is a nice life, cute and so independent
But at what cost ?
Keeping those that care about you at a far off distance? Or being with an empty hole that can never filled up ?
Many times we find comfort in the dark, yet all we need is little burning light.
Finding peace in silence, while ignoring the cries of the man next to us.
We have lots of stories to tell, yet We love keeping ourselves in these silent tears,
Struggling with the silent battles and tables, yet deep down, these crosses are wearing us down.

It’s cool to say it but I’m no fool for it’s worse to be alone, and it’s far much worse when you’re a loner.
We forget that we are because of others, and without anyone we are simply no one.
Our destinies, fate are thing that are intertwined in lots of unimaginable ways.
Drop your walls, and let people in, it’s what makes us human.

Healthy minds

A walk with you

Finally, we are where we’ve always wanted to be,
Or rather, on our way to where we are meant to.
This light we’ve given out,
we never expected to shine this bright,
to some it has brought hope,
to others love, but above all, kept us going and pushing through against all odds in life.

Some things around us… turned magical,
making memories and melodies became part of us,
living life, was a realization of our dream.

U dared to complete me, made me who I am, defined that which I couldn’t,
held me up when I was falling,
held the candle, when I was burning,
sheltered me amidst all the scorn,
kept up with my insolence, and still… Never given up.

U haven’t been easy either,
changing with the changing you has often worn me out,
me trekking after you made you blush,
falling for me everyday is one thing you’ve never given up,
breaking me in pieces has also been another…
And yet, here I still am… with you.

Fate, time, space and destiny have been of essence, and so have you!
Our baby quarrels, silent fights, unending blows and straws, willows and gallows, all served to make us one… They have made the best out of us, a big one for that.

And my heart’s ❤️ beat, has never stopped beating for you🙈

Happy Vals to all love birds

A step each moment

Take it One day at a time, one step each moment…
Not too fast, and not too slow, just a steady pace, one you can handle.
The world has a tendency of offering you something and nothing at the same time, how you use both totally depends on your objectives.
And no one builds scrap out of nothing, so always have something, small humble beginnings can magnify your your spectrum, your podium, ur position. Don’t underestimate them.

A healthy mind is a rich one

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